The lows kick in

Winding down... finding it hard to write and read.  My focus is distracted... my memory obscure.t

Thoughts of her are what is driving me forward.,

Lily, my folks, my siblings, and the friends that helped turn me into the man I am today.

I may have a while to go to prove myself... but I'll work hard to attain constant happiness as opposed to utmost perfection.

The hardest part of this disorder...

... is the loss of control and independence.  I know what I stand to lose, so I follow every order, even if from doctor to doctor those orders conflict.

I just wish I was normal.

I'm still happy... but I can feel the low today...

...but I'm not scared. 

Because I believe in my family, my friends, and even the hospital staff...

I know they want what's best for me.  And I'm gonna make sure to fight and work towards tomorrow.

I've found my calling

I want to be a writer.

It will take patience... perseverance... and I will have to be aware of my disorder every step of the way.


This is what I want to do with my life.


Wish me luck!