A two post kind of day.
I found that with my disorder, I could find and create new triggers.
Let me explain...
With bipolar disorder, there's this thing I've always called "triggers." A trigger is basically... an event or really, well... anything... that causes a bipolar individual to either go high or low.
I have more than a few.
Love is one of mine. Video games is another. Superman, music, philosophy, tv shows, and more... each of these have a profound effect on my mood and disposition.
I write this because...
... my friends may not always understand me. They may not understand why I connect Point A to Point C while they're connecting Path's A and B.
To be honest, I don't know why I do it either.
If I was to guess, I'd say it's due to my upbringing. I had a tumultuous childhood. That's not to say it wasn't a happy time... it's just... I spent a lot of time alone and depressed as a child.
It took me 25 years to realize... I was never really alone. I just thought I was.
Today... when I look back... I see the man I was and the man I've become... and I'm happy.
Happiness is my goal... it always has been. I may suck at attaining it, but I'm taking the steps necessary in my life to make sure I never lose this feeling...
This feeling of...
Accomplishment.
Pride.
Self Respect.
And more.
I'm happy. I really am. I may miss those I don't/cant see anymore, but you have never, ever left my heart.
This may be cheesy but... I love you guys. You have all, knowingly or not, played a part in the man I am today.
Whether you want to take credit for that or not :P
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