What next?

I get asked this question a lot.  I usually don't like to think of what's lying further down the road (except where my daughter is concerned).  I like to live in the moment, react to whatever is happening at the time.

Now that it seems we've acquired some semblance of stability, it has me thinking of the future.

Immediate future?  Get a car.  Do the things that make me happy.  Keep improving in terms of what I do in my day to day.

Two years down the road?  Have a place with a room just for my daughter.  I'm going to start getting her overnights and I want her to have a room to call her own.

Four years down the road?  Hopefully by this time I'm well into college, aiming for a degree that will qualify me for some  high paying job that will be as stress free as humanly possible.

Then when I have all my ducks in a row, I'll think about starting up a relationship again.

I've reached this point of contentment where I don't live or die depending on if I'm seeing someone or not.  It's not that I've given up the notion of "true love" and "soul mates."  It's just that... there is so much in this world that I need to accomplish before I can be proud of the man I am.  Once I'm happy with who I am, the hours I put into a career, the stability of my mind... I'll be ready.

But first... I need to prove stability over time.  If we really have found the right combo of meds, the right dosage... I know that I'll be able to be everything I've always wanted to be.