Missing the little one

While I'm glad I'm helping my Grandmother right now, and I'm glad that I live in such close proximity to my significant other... I do miss Lily.  A lot.

From seeing her twice a week to not at all... it's hard.  She's growing independent, and fast... which is good and bad.  Good because she'll be her own woman and self reliant.  Bad because she's my little girl and I'm going to miss her coming up to me all the time.

Part of growing up...

She's in school now.  I'm so proud of her.  She's so ridiculously smart.  Her mom really takes the time and works with her.  She's got my memory... we often play memory games and she has no problem with them.  She's going to breeze through school...

And she's such an extrovert... making friends will never be a problem for her.

We go on walks every visit.  Usually just around the block.  Most of the time I end up carrying her.  Her up on my shoulders, ducking under low hanging tree branches from the neighbors' yards.  She asks questions about the flowers, the squirrels, pretty much all things nature.  I cherish these moments with her.

She plays video games now, so we'll start up the Xbox and jump into something I feel is kid friendly.  As much as she loves fighting zombies, I feel COD may have to wait...

She loves hide and seek.  She would play it all day without once getting bored.  She's also taken to playing fetch with Roxy, Chad's dog.  It's cute to listen to her call out "Roxy Rue!  Fetch!"

Next summer I'll start getting her overnights.  I can't wait.  I plan on having a place with her own room set up.  Molly should be in Spokane by that point.  She has a bed already ready for her.

I can't wait to introduce Molly to Lily.  Molly is nervous, which is understandable.  I tell her to not worry... to be herself.  Lily loves everybody.  And she does.  She's got the biggest heart.

So while I'm not looking forward to leaving family and Molly behind... I am looking forward to seeing my daughter once more.  She's the light that brightens up the shadows I sometimes find in my life. 

I miss that crazy kid.